Monday, September 19, 2011


Last night, I realized that, for the first time in my life, I truly wish that I were living in Provo but not going to school.  That has never happened before.  Yes, there have been times when I wished I didn't have school, but they've never been particularly strong.  And in the past, my main reason for coming to Provo has always been simply school, and the "fringe benefits" (friends, ward, classmates, etc.) just happened to come along with the package.  Yesterday, I realized that those "fringe benefits" have just as strong a pull on me as school does, and my feelings against school soared to new heights.  I had just spent a wonderful Sunday interacting with lots of amazing people, particularly my roommates, and then I realized that the next day I had to return to the real world, and I didn't want to!  Though there have been times when I've been tired of school and wanted a break, I've always loved school and been willing to go despite being tired of it.  Now, it hasn't even been that long since the semester began, and I'm already sick of it.  I even considered skipping class today...for about half a second.  :)  No matter how sick I am of school, I don't know that I'll ever go that far.  :)  However, I do know that if I want to keep my grades up, I'm going to have to step it up, because I'm definitely only about half in school right now.  Suddenly I'm much more interested in being social than I used to be and much less interested in keeping up with my homework.  And I'm certain that knowing this is my last year in school (I just applied for graduation!  Crazy!) hasn't helped.  I guess it's just a good thing that I haven't had much homework so far so I'd have time to get my life figured out.  I suppose I just need to learn to find a balance.  In the meantime, if I'm just a little all over the place (like in recent posts)'ll know why.  :)

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